I used to think of angels as female, long flowing white gowns with halo and wings. Not anymore. My angel just so happens to be of the United States Marine Corps variety, an officer, gentleman and a Yankee!
Things from the past creep into my sleep and invade my dreams. They carry me back to a place and time that I don't care to revisit. Yet, more and more, I do. Memories long ago repressed and shoved deep down inside continue to come to the surface. My therapist says this is good.
Many times I wake up in a cold sweat, heart pounding, not able to catch my breath, lost in the grips of fear. For a second, everything seems dark. I am lost and can not find my way.
Yesterday, I napped on the sofa while The Yankee was on the computer, only a few feet away. I don't remember dozing off, but I do remember being trapped inside a nightmare.
His voice, soft and soothing, his gentle touch on my knee pulled me out. I opened my eyes to see him standing over me, a look of love and concern all over him.
"Wake up,Baby. You are safe", he said giving me time to adjust and come out of the horror.
Slowly he leans down to kiss my forehead.
"You are here with me. I promise, you are safe".
I look up at him, standing there in only jeans, the familiar sight of those strong arms and I know, yes, I am safe.
He kneels down in front of me and I place my hand over his heart. Just feeling it beat under my hand makes me feel calm. He pulls me to him, holding me close and tight. His strength becomes mine as our hearts beat in unison. Stroking my cheek with his fingers he tells me he loves me and that I belong to him.
Kissing me tenderly, he pulls me further into the present as the past fades away.
Sitting beside me on the sofa, I hold onto him for dear life as memories of the night before, sleeping soundly in his arms while he holds me tight run through my mind.
He can't stop those demons from finding me, but he chases them away when they do.
I love this song by Wynonna. It describes how I feel about my "angel".
"My Angel Is Here"
They say there's a state of heaven
Somewhere way beyond the clouds
I know there's a piece of heaven
In every little thing that you do
'Cause every time you walk in the room
My angel is here
I'm so protected and heaven's so near
When I am under your wing
My wounds are healed and my spirit is clear
Come on angel make my heart sing
So when I'm lost and alone who will find me
Who's there whenever I call
Show me the way to the strength that's inside me
Pick me up whenever I fall
You say love is no conditions
Each soul is free to come and go
Stay strong I don't need permission
'Cause paradise is waiting for me
Every time I hear my heart speak
My angel is here
Who is your angel?
AN ASSIGNMENT FROM TAYLOR:
We played a little game at my place this weekend.
Bloggers were asked to pick three bloggers, say something nice about them and
CAST LOVE INTO THE STREAM !!!
This is what Captain Morgan said about you:
INSIDE THE FLAME by ^BELLE^ - and her Yankee ( Has Life Escaped Me? by The Yankee ) - The two of you have reminded me just how incredible the magic can be when soul mates unite. Sharing all that happiness means more to me than I can explain in words.
Now, if you have time, maybe, you would like to
CAST LOVE INTO THE STREAM TOO?
Tell an old friend how much their friendship has meant to you.
Tell a new friend how glad you are to have found them.
OR
Welcome A New Blogger To The Stream.
(You can pick more than three if you want to.)
Hugggggggggggggggggggz,
Taylor |< << >> >|
HERE ARE MINE:
The Yankee: The Love of My Life. His love has made my life complete.
PolarB: We've never met in person, but my heart calls her a friend. She has inspired me with her words of encouragement,and makes me laugh!
Taylor: Like the title of your blog....Love and Light. You write such insightful and healing post. I love that you have found your soul mate also...."It was no accident"..
Puppy and Ice: Can't think of one without the other. Each excellant bloggers in their own right and they are so darn cute!
Lucy: I fell in love with Lucy the first time I read her blog and miss her!
Biggie T: My brother from a different mother. I SO LOVE HIM! He is always quick with his humor and one of the kindest, sweetest, most loving souls I know.
Marc: SWEET HOME ALABAMA AND ROLL TIDE! We share an Alabama connection and we both love Tommy! Marc is a super nice guy with many gifts.
Randy: Oh possum grits and tuna girdles! He has a warped sense of humor and is so very talented!
Secret: I LOVE HER!
BC(BigChris): The big brother of Blogstream. If you ever find yourself backed into a corner, you want him on your side.
Captain Morgan and Chey: They share a beautiful love that gives me a warm feeling inside.
Colo: Many nights it has been just me and Colo floating around the stream, and she always drops by to say goodnight and tuck me in by signing off with: "Sleep with the angels".
Daisy: Like her name, a beautiful flower. She has inspired me with her gentle manner and loving spirit.
Madie: Another gentle and sweet soul here on Blogstream.
Miss Lou: Another of Biggie's angels.......very sweet.
Whispered Promise: Her blog inspires me.
Chanda: I love her humor and wit!
Joe: He always has wise words and a humor that I enjoy.
Rosie: An Aussie woman that I love! She writes so beautifully.
Kristin: If Randy had a twin sister...it would be her! She should be writing comedy for David Letterman.
Wayf: I love his style!
Six: She is so beautiful and talented.
Prank: I LOVE THIS MAN! A gentle soul and Southern gent!
Major Pain: Semper Fi!
The list could go on and on....... I'm sure I'll be back.
Later Ya'll...^Belle^
